136_Analysis Notes – 11/7/2020

Energy is absorbed during collisions. Collision is necessary to ‘have’ energy, but energy is lost in pursuing collision. The cosmic dance is mastered in following the timing of collision.

Humans want to connect with other humans who have experienced what they’ve experienced, or believe what they believe, or need what they need. Finding commonality is how we build societies, but it isn’t necessarily how they thrive. 

Our subject has developed outside the caste structure she now enters. They have always treated her as an inferior being. She doesn’t know who else to be or how to be it. The most ironic thing about her situation is her belief that her role is one of a parent, nurturing a child in pain. In reality, her role is one of servitude, of continually trying to enter a culture that has told her she is not good enough to be a part of it.

She wants to break free of her past, but the only other reality she knows is one where she is the lesser being. Her desire to connect with others, outside of the dysfunction that was her upbringing, will make the exchange worth it. She isn’t comfortable with the lesser caste, and she isn’t comfortable in the higher caste. She has moved from being the best of a bad situation to be the worst of her best possibility, and she must accept the position. To evolve her DNA, she cannot abandon the DNA she no longer wants. She must expand new strands. 

Caste structures will always exist, even if they aren’t cultural. It will likely be centuries before humans understand true equality. Keeping people who are less than you close prevents you from being vulnerable. No one wants to be the weak gazelle, but our subject will accept the role. She will use it to evolve. 

If you want to be better, you must surround yourself with those things representing where you want to be. She’s accepted the role of a servant. She’s agreed to accept the pain of those she considers elite. She’ll accept the suffering they are unable to see, so she can have a chance to experience a new tribal structure. 

Many people believe we learn faster than children. That’s not entirely true. Science has proven that humans learn secondary languages easier when we’re older. Learning the accent of a new language is muscular development, so it’s harder to develop when you’re older. Still, the complexities of language itself are easier once the brain is fully developed because it is now psychological development instead of physical development.

Our subject is learning a new language, one she doesn’t understand. Like a child, she’ll stumble exhibiting socially unacceptable behavior because she only knows what she’s learned, socially inappropriate behavior. However, she’ll learn quickly. She’ll pick up subtleties and nuances that are not recognized by the people who have been born to what she considers an advantage. In this situation, the pain she feels will seem unfair, but she doesn’t understand the tremendous advantage she has being the ‘lesser person.’

I remember when my son was young. He was good at baseball, and they wanted to move him from a league where he excelled, where he was one of the best players on the team, to a league where he was the worst. Because of his age, the choice to move was up to him. I told him, “You have a choice. You can stay where you are, and you can be a hero, an inspiration that teaches the other players what they can be. If you move up, you’re the student, learning from others who are the heroes. There is not a right or wrong choice in the situation. You just need to decide who you want to be. Do you want to be the teacher or the student?”

He chose to move up, to forgo the accolades so he could have the opportunity to improve. Well, he got his accolades that year, “Most Improved Player.” It’s maybe not the goal everyone in sports wants to seek, but it was better than MVP for him. 

It is human nature to want more. In a healthy ecosystem, we will never stop expanding. The risk here is that our subject has surrounded herself with a higher caste structure, and without the awareness that she has come here to learn, it will increase her feelings of failure. Like my son, if she knows she is there to grow, she can be inspired to that growth, but she’s not there yet. She’s desperately reaching for a place to land, a place that’s never accepted or supported her. It will harm her, and still, it’s the best place for her to be, even with the risks.

Confirmation bias gives her two options, stay in the dysfunction of her upbringing, or try to find something better. To transcend either option, she must count on her brain’s observational nature to introduce ideas she doesn’t understand, and she must then follow those ideas, but not blindly. Because, in the end, they are the door that will lead her out of her suffering, but they are not her solution.